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Hoarders on A&E. Worst show.
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[07 Aug 2009|09:03pm] |
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Life is funny, sometimes.
The older that I get, the less and less I identify with an absolute. I see my own thoughts, emotions, and priorities grow and become what I perceive as "mature." The same thoughts, emotions, and priorities seem to get lost in the white noise among those around me. Even those that believe they've got it figured out seem elementary. After all, claiming to have life sorted out at 25 is like calling it a game at halftime.
I don't feel like the carefree youth that I told myself I'd always be. I don't feel like my life is full of unpredictability and spontaneity. I don't want it to be, either. I like knowing who I am and where my life is headed. I like the idea of security and a job. I like the feeling of a good paycheck. And I like the feeling of adulthood and taking care of myself. I like my 401k.
Some of the people in my life have all but disappeared. The only thing left for them is making me feel bad for not supporting this or that, not liking this thing or that thing, for eating or not eating whatever. I have done my best to be a sincere and kind person to everyone that crossed my path. But no matter what I did or continue to do, it feels like I can never get ahead with them. It also feels like they catch every break, while I get shit on. And it bothers me... a lot.
I've tried my best to stay the same, stable, stressed out, fun-loving dude throughout these past many years. I'm not saying it's over, I'm just saying, it might be time for others to consider my plight.
I feel all alone and small in a world that is so big.
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[16 Apr 2009|06:43pm] |
Screen printing is going to be my new full-time job.
I'm watching an episode of COPS that is so sad. There's a lady who got busted in the mouth and she's just on the sidewalk with her baby, crying, "I've got no place to go..." She's trying so hard to keep her composure, but it's obviously a losing battle.
I just feel really bad for this lady that I don't even know. Life is hard enough, but it shouldn't be that hard for people. Especially not their little baby girl.
Wicked sensitive post.
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[15 Mar 2009|01:44pm] |
I've been so wrong about the Gaslight Anthem for so long.
Billy's condition is getting better. They moved him from ICU to the rehab center. The doctor says it would be best if he limited his visitors to just family to help his recovery.
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[12 Mar 2009|08:22pm] |
For those of you that care, Billy Esposito, former Overdose drummer, was injured in a motorcycle accident on Saturday evening. He was in a coma for roughly 3 days and woke up on Tuesday. He's in ICU at Kennestone Hospital in Marietta, GA.
He has a smashed wrist (obviously not the technical name) that he just got surgery on this past Tuesday. He took one on the chin, so he's a little disoriented still, but expected to make a full recovery after some rehab and time. He's a pretty roughed up and a little disoriented, like I said, but he's in pretty good spirits. If you'd like to send your wishes/prayers/thoughts to him and his family, I know it would be appreciated.
If you would like to go see him, he's in the Green Tower of Kennestone in room 362 of ICU. Visiting hours are any time that isn't 6:30 -- 8:30 (am or pm), just don't be a dickhead about it (dude's got some sleeping he's trying to do).
I went to visit him there today and he was looking good and gave me a big hug when I walked in the door. Again, realize that he was just in a motorcycle accident, so if you do go see him, just be patient and easygoing. He'd love to see all of you. If you can't make it but want to send along well wishes, just let me know either through here, MySpace, or an e-mail and I'll make sure the message is delivered.
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[09 Feb 2009|09:26pm] |
Things Jackie has got me stoked on:
Dexter Seasons 1 & 2
Six Feet Under Seasons 1 & 2
John and Kate Plus 8
Top Chef (I'm a bitch)
I bought Dirty Work on DVD for $2 yesterday along with Indecision's "Release the Cure."
Ate Jason's Deli with Jackie's fam. So good.
I'm still a fat piece of shit. I weigh 183.4lbs as of tonight. My target is 168lbs by summer.
No more soda, better eating, more running, more weights.
No job. No care.
I want to move to a foreign country sometime soon.
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[01 Feb 2009|10:50am] |
I'm out here a thousand miles from my home,
Walkin' a road other men have gone down.
I'm seein' your world of people and things,
Your paupers and peasants and princes and kings.
Hey, hey Woody Guthrie, I wrote you a song
'Bout a funny ol' world that's a-comin' along.
Seems sick an' it's hungry, it's tired an' it's torn,
It looks like it's a-dyin' an' it's hardly been born.
Hey, Woody Guthrie, but I know that you know
All the things that I'm a-sayin' an' a-many times more.
I'm a-singin' you the song, but I can't sing enough,
'Cause there's not many men that done the things that you've done.
Here's to Cisco an' Sonny an' Leadbelly too,
An' to all the good people that traveled with you.
Here's to the hearts and the hands of the men
That come with the dust and are gone with the wind.
I'm a-leaving' tomorrow, but I could leave today,
Somewhere down the road someday.
The very last thing that I'd want to do
Is to say I've been hittin' some hard travelin' too.
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[31 Jan 2009|10:08am] |
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I'm teaching US History and Psychology at Marietta High School. I really like my classes and students. It's kind of stressful, but it's also really cool. I feel like I'm growing up.
Those fears I used to have of, "I can't take care of myself...blah blah blah" are gone. I know that I struggle with adulthood sometimes, but I never struggle or have second thoughts when I'm up there.
Straight Edge. 2009.
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[04 Jan 2009|09:35pm] |
8:30 PM Friday: Purchase Refurbished Xbox 360 Pro.
6:00 PM Sunday: Red Ring of Death.
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[20 Dec 2008|07:15pm] |
I am committed to getting my fat ass back into shape.
And I have discovered the perfect soundtrack to do so.
Going to see Jackie and her family tomorrow and do a mini-Christmas. Then moving Jackie's stuff from Tuscaloosa to Madison, AL.
I want to push myself to the brink of giving up every time I work out. The feeling afterward is indescribable and good.
Listen to Integrity - "Mirror in Reverse"
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[13 Dec 2008|10:41am] |
I haven't updated in a while. You might be wondering what's been going on in my life in the past month or so, or you could have gone on living your life without even noticing.
I'm done with school for the semester. An A, a B, and a Satisfactory for my field experience. I'm pretty happy with that. Wish I could have made 2 A's, but whatever. I'm done stressing for the next couple weeks. Then the insanity starts again January 9th.
I'll be doing my student teaching at Marietta Middle School, which is cool. I did my first observations there years ago, and it would be mega-cool if I could get the same teacher again. If not, that's okay too. I have to pay my graduation fee sometime soon.
Jackie moved back to her parents house at the beginning of November, bummer. But, I did go see her for Thanksgiving and I ate "balut." Wikipedia it. Yeah, I know, right? It tasted just like a hard boiled egg.
I'm getting Jackie something that rules for Christmas. It's going to be awesome.
I started drinking coffee recently. Although, it's more like milk and sugar with a pinch of coffee added after the fact.
There is so much stuff in the world that I want to see and do and so little time to do it all in. Even if I had 100 lifetimes, I think there would be more to see and do. I want to experience everything. If I have another good 55 years, I think I can reasonably accomplish going to 6/7 continents (leaving Antarctica out of the mix). I want to get Masters degree in education, too. Maybe I just need to get my BA first. Whatever.
Things I look forward to doing soon:
- A new zine with Rick about food.
- Graduation.
- Christmas and giving some cool gifts.
- Lifting weights and running (not really running, but I have to).
- Getting to hang with Jackie.
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[25 Sep 2008|10:30pm] |
So... in the last ten days, the world has gone to hell in a handbasket?
Russia wants to sell nukes to Venezuela.
China is going to space.
The election race has been ratcheted up to a frenzy.
Speaking of frenzy, our economy is completely in the shitter. Call me old fashioned, but, MAYBE WE SHOULDN'T HAVE HANDED OUT LOANS LIKE GODDAMNED CANDY AT EASTER. The stock market looks like a cardiac monitor. Up. Down. Up. Down. George Bush did everything but declare us completely SCREWED. It's a Republicans worst nightmare. I feel bad for people who are losing big time. Me? I have nothing to lose. That's the advantage of my vagrant/student life. No money in the bank. No stocks. No bonds.
Kind of reminds me of the Jimmy Carter era of consumer confidence...
I'm going to be teaching 6th graders at McClure Middle School pretty soon. Scary stuff. Time to grow up. Time to be an adult.
Rick, Alexxx, Neil, David, and myself have a new band...
http://www.myspace.com/lastritesatlanta
Jackie is staying here now. It rules. She rules.
Blackout on Saturday. GOOOOO DAWGS. SICK 'EM.
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[13 Sep 2008|08:08pm] |
My life is a fucking trainwreck.
My classes are going to be dropped tomorrow because I was selected for verification for my student loans and haven't paid yet. Apparently, my verification worksheet was returned without me knowing. SO, now I have to wait AGAIN for my loan money.
I'm so stressed out. I have no money and no time to wait.
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[27 Aug 2008|09:58pm] |
Week 2 of school. I really like it this semester, even though I'm super busy.
I started a job at Planet Smoothie/Nestle's Cookies today.
I'm not going back tomorrow.
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[18 Aug 2008|08:45am] |
Words I expect to hear today:
"I'm a laid back teacher"
"I expect certain things from you"
"Come see me in my office"
"There is no reason why everyone in here can't make an A"
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[02 Jul 2008|07:57pm] |
"I'm no different, only the same
Looking for meaning out of every day
Don't know it all
Never thought I did (not me)
Don't be afraid to claim what's yours
Take what you can but give much more..."
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